wellbehavedwomendontmakehistory:
Just feeling lost or is it loss. I wish I could get past this stage and move onto another, any of them would be and have been preferred. I’ve hit so many lately and still come back to this one. I’m so tired of it, so tired in general. I feel like i lost who I am and can’t find myself anymore. I see the person I was, what I stood for and how much I could do. Then I remember that so much of me was hidden. And I had that one moment in time where i found someone i could let myself be me with and all of a sudden I became the enemy, like he no longer saw me or any of the things he loved about me and i was just all wrong . All wrong for him, all wrong for us, just the enemy. I hadn’t stopped being me tho so now i’m just stuck. Every day I wake up and start again, somedays are ok but most just end like this, where I feel like i’m just…..no longer who I am, just who I have to be to survive and do what i need to for others, only catching glimpses of myself somewhere in the times when no one is looking.
